Session X

Bruce Tift: “The closer we get to our core vulnerabilities, or the truth of openness, the more we feel an annihilatory panic. So we unconsciously opt for the experience of polarized drama to having to face the truth of our [groundless] experience. And in doing so we create an incredibly resilient and stable psychic structure: struggle.” 

David Loy: “The way to integrate anxiety is to become completely anxious; to let formless unprojected anxiety  . . . devour me too and, like the parasite that kills its host, consumes itself.  The school of anxiety is the path to true freedom, which is what remains after we have been purged of all the comforting hiding places we automatically flee to whenever we feel insecure.” 

Trungpa Rinpoche: “We could say that the real world is that in which we experience pleasure and pain, good and bad. . . But if we are completely in touch with these dualistic feelings, that absolute experience of duality is itself the experience of nonduality. Then there is no problem at all, because duality is seen from a perfectly open and clear point of view in which there is no conflict; there is a tremendous encompassing vision of oneness. [Not even oneness, not a universe, but a nulliverse]  Conflict arises because duality is not seen as it is at all. It is seen only in biased way, a very clumsy way.  In fact, we do not perceive anything properly [because of prapanca, vikalpa, samskaras, projections], and we begin to wonder whether such things as myself and my projections really exist. So when we talk about the dualistic world as confusion, that confusion is not the complete dualistic world, but only half-hearted; it builds up to the point of fear of becoming insane, the point where there are possibilities of leaving the world of duality and going into a sort of woolly, fuzzy emptiness, which is the world of the dead, the graveyard that exists in the midst of fog.”

Trungpa Rinpoche: “The alaya is the ground of origin of samsara and nirvana . . . It has within it the living, creative energy . . . The creative energy of the alaya became so strong that it broke away from the alaya and became avidya [ignorance] . . . which ignores or forgets the alaya. This is the first establishment of the ego, and from it fear springs when one realizes that one is an individual and alone. . . . Just as fear was the first reaction to arise when the breaking away from the alaya took place, so it tends to be the last barrier to the return to the alaya. As one begins to return to the alaya fear may arise due to a sensation of impending annihilation, and this fear must be fully entered into before the return can be accomplished.”

Dave Matthews Band:

What would you say?

“Rip away the tears
Drink a hope for happy years
And you may find
A lifetime’s passed you by

Everybody goes in the end.”